What's happening to me?

Friday, 17 March 2017

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I'm freaking out.

I'm like woah.

What the fudge?
What the actual fudge?  Like the proper thick sickly fudge, that you get from those fudge shops in cute places like Bath or Windsor, the ones that have many different flavors, and if you're lucky you get to have free tasters. The fancy fudge.
What the fancy fudge? I am 20. Someone mentioned to me that I am half way to 40 and that shook me. Shook me real good. Like I'm shook mate. Real shook.

I'm currently learning to drive at the moment and that is shaking me enough as it is. I, Amelia Mandeville, am making the choice as an adult -ew that word doesn't feel right- to learn to drive, because it's what I need to do for practicality. And I'm finding myself stressing about money, how expensive it is, will I be able to afford a car? will I be able to afford insurance? It's very stressful, and I'm beginning to realise how much being an adult sucks. And this is only the beginning.


Man.

This must be what has led me to have this weird moment in which I call it 'my belated teenage rebellion phase.' I have recently had the sudden urge to have a huge change- chop my hair off, dye it purple, pierce my nose, change my wardrobe, wear bolder makeup, wear huge hoop earrings, wear all the fishnet tights, and all the fluffy coats.

Why?

I don't know. But something I have come to realise is, life is short. If you want to do something you should do it. Yes, life is where you should build a career, make yourself secure, stable, and safe, and have a future for yourself. But also life is for the living, having fun, creating memories, and doing what you want to do. And if I want to dye my hair purple so much that I keep dreaming about hair salons, I should probably do it. And yes I might regret it, and yes it might damage my hair, and yes is might look awful.... but let's remember I am half way to 40, if there's not a better time to dye your hair purple and make impulse decisions than now, I don't know when is.

Make sure you follow us on our youtube and bloglovin, so you can keep posted on the purple situation.

Speak soon guys

-A,x

19 comments:

  1. I relate so much, I'm just not ready to grow up and yet all these responsibilities keep coming!!?! (I feel like I might as well mention the video i made of me stressing out about growing up so there's that aha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2R3aR_tbEGk&t=32s) it's nice to know I'm not the only one freaking out about it

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    1. Ahh you feel me! Ooooh thanks I'll check the video out <3

      -A,x

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  2. Growing up is such a wierd thing!!

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  3. I get where you're coming from, I'm learning to drive at the moment too and I can't believe how much it's adding up to, so muchvh more than I expected! GO DYE YOUR HAIR PURPLE, do it!!�� Here's my blog if you wanna have a read https://bbbryony.wordpress.com/ xx

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    1. Its SO expensive and so hard too!! help meeeee hahaha

      oooh thank you, might have a mooch!!

      -A,x

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  5. I'll be 23 yo next week, so.. I need to dye my hair red, haha:D

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  6. I'm from American, and I've been driving since I was 15. I'm now 21. It's nice to have the ability to drive, but it is somewhat expensive.

    P.S. You can follow me on Insta: @shyanharrod

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    1. Ah wooowwwww, wish I was driving that young...actually wait no I don't...I still feel too young to drive now hahaha
      -A,x

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  7. I'm turning 20 in less than 6 months and I'm freaking out! I feel like I need to go on some huge adventure or have an amazing summer romance or something so that I can say I did something cool while I was a teen.
    A L S O: DYE YOUR HAIR PURPLE!! My hair was purple and I miss it soo much

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    1. hahahaha I feel like that! I wasn't a adventurous teen, I don't have many teenage stories hahaha. But hey, I'm in my twenties now, lets make some twenty stories!

      -A,x

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  8. Being an adult sucks sometimes but on the bright side, you will soon be able to drive a car! My parents helped me purchase my first car and I paid them back gradually over 2 years. Parents are so helpful as they've gone through it all before so just ask them what they did in those situations. I've been driving for over 3 years now and I haven't looked back but paying for fuel and other stuff sucks but it's the price you pay :)

    P.S my insta is snapshotofrealityphotography :D

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    1. That's such a lovely way to think!!!

      Yeah I guess it does add up, but it's a life investment I guess!

      -A,x

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  9. I remember when I learnt to drive and I was so scared. I thought 'Why on earth would someone put me in charge of this four wheeled metal machine? Are they made?'. After a year, I passed! However, I don't own a car because money is extremely limited. Why does it have to be so expensive? If I was a millionaire that would be cool. It constantly stresses me out. Oh well, got to get on with life. Look on the bright side of life, as they say. Hope the driving lessons go well for you, Amelia. By the way, when you pass Amelia any chance you could give me a lift?

    P.S My Instagram is @chrisgrubic :)

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    1. Hahahahahaha yeah that is literally my thought! Hey if i can afford a car I'll give you a lift, yeah, sure hahaha
      -A,x

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  10. I totally feel you! walking towards to adulthood is being very complicated to me. Seeing that now I have responsibilities that I haven't, worrying about things that I often didn't, thinking everyday that I have to decide what am I going to do with my life in the future literally freaks me out. Still, thinking about my 'love life' and the recent break up that I've passed through makes me go crazy. I never thought I would be thinking about a lot of stuff that I am so soon, and this scares me! Anyway, you're not alone with this feeling so let's try to live the best of our lives now!
    (By the way, dye your hair purpleeee, it's going to look awesome and also be a new nice experience!)
    :)

    in love with your blogposts haha!
    p.s: my instagram is @yasmarrtins


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    1. Ah sorry to hear about your break up! I'm sure that was hard, but hey just keep looking forward! Life is scary, but hey thats part of it isn't it?


      -A,x

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