I'm freaking out.
I'm like woah.
What the fudge?
What the actual fudge? Like the proper thick sickly fudge, that you get from those fudge shops in cute places like Bath or Windsor, the ones that have many different flavors, and if you're lucky you get to have free tasters. The fancy fudge.
What the fancy fudge? I am 20. Someone mentioned to me that I am half way to 40 and that shook me. Shook me real good. Like I'm shook mate. Real shook.
I'm currently learning to drive at the moment and that is shaking me enough as it is. I, Amelia Mandeville, am making the choice as an adult -ew that word doesn't feel right- to learn to drive, because it's what I need to do for practicality. And I'm finding myself stressing about money, how expensive it is, will I be able to afford a car? will I be able to afford insurance? It's very stressful, and I'm beginning to realise how much being an adult sucks. And this is only the beginning.
This must be what has led me to have this weird moment in which I call it 'my belated teenage rebellion phase.' I have recently had the sudden urge to have a huge change- chop my hair off, dye it purple, pierce my nose, change my wardrobe, wear bolder makeup, wear huge hoop earrings, wear all the fishnet tights, and all the fluffy coats.
I don't know. But something I have come to realise is, life is short. If you want to do something you should do it. Yes, life is where you should build a career, make yourself secure, stable, and safe, and have a future for yourself. But also life is for the living, having fun, creating memories, and doing what you want to do. And if I want to dye my hair purple so much that I keep dreaming about hair salons, I should probably do it. And yes I might regret it, and yes it might damage my hair, and yes is might look awful.... but let's remember I am half way to 40, if there's not a better time to dye your hair purple and make impulse decisions than now, I don't know when is.
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