Hello people of the internet.
So i’m not sure if you guys know, some may and some may not. But since the age of 15 I have been lucky enough to film 3 series of 'The Sparticle Mystery’ on CBBC. This has been the most amazing experience of my life, I mean lets be realistic here, I got to do what I loved, got to miss school, and got payed for it? A pure dream.
But please do not assume that I’m a good actress because I’ve been filming for television, because I certainly do not believe upon that assumption- infact my beliefs are of the complete opposite. After playing the same character for such a period of time I started to doubt my acting ability. I told myself that the reason I was slowly “realising” that the acting career path was not for me was because I had one hand and that I didn’t ever see myself getting the dream period acting role -because lets face it Queen Elizabeth didn’t have one hand, and neither would the beautiful perfect upper class family member in Downton Abbey - the historical facts are evident upon this. However I think the real reason to why I was thinking that acting may not be part of my future is because I was beginning to majorly doubt my acting ability, not because of something a crew or cast member had said to me, but just because.
But today I had another filming job, a job where I played a character so far out of my comfort zone that I was absolutely petrified. It was only one day of filming and it absolutely sparked my passion all the way to the stars and back (too much?). Why you may ask? Partly because it reminded me of what acting is about; learning, experiencing something new and challenging yourself. But mainly because out of the blue I got the most amazing compliment in the world. I very rarely believe a compliment when it’s given to me and even then I do not accept it, but today I really listened to it- and it changed my thought process hugely!
So I’m not blabbing on to tell you how proud I was of myself today, but to tell you guys, that it is so important to tell somebody if you think they are good at something, and to please listen when a compliment is given, because that could change someones of even your outlook on your career, dream or even life. Thanks to the help of a wonderful man I have realised that I will be the first Queen in a period film to have one hand- and if nobody will cast me for such a role because of my unique (dis) ability- then the reason I don't get it is because I actually don't want it.
P.S I still want to do presenting, I've just realised that I can aspire to be successful at both acting and presenting- If Cara Delevigne can model and act, and Nicki Minaj can be in a movie and sing- then you can bet on the fact that I'm gonna be both Presenting and Acting!